All the things I’m not

A friend came over for a bit today and we complimented each others clothes and hair like we always do and then she said “this sweater thing is so ill fitting” and I followed with something about my shorts being schlumpy. I love how women, or people in general for that matter, take a compliments…

Are we there yet? Yes.

I was talking with a friend of mine and we decided that it isn’t getting old, the inevitable dulling skin and aching knees that brings around moments of fear, it’s the idea, the realization, that we only have so many minutes left to fit in all the things we want to see, experience, and feel….

The Great Compromise

It’s that time of year again- another trip around the sun is almost complete, another number is ready to be added to my age resume, and the opportunity for reflection is here. Did I learn anything over the last year? Did I fight to hold on to the things not meant for me? Have I…

Rinse and Repeat

I woke up on Saturday with a cold sore in the right corner of my mouth. Gross. Besides being annoying and unappealing to look at it’s an indicator, my bodies way of telling me that I’ve been neglecting needs in my life that have become glaringly necessary. It’s a reminder that the chaos I allow…

Not all tears are created equal

I spent the holidays with my kids. I stayed with my daughter and her family and was completely engulfed by the wonderment of a one year old. I was sitting across the room from Lauren and she said ” This is the most calm I’ve seen you in a long time, maybe even ever.” I…

Guarded but not off limits

Dates on a calendar blow by when you’re in the middle of your ordinary life (unless we’re talking about this last January which had 742 days in it). Is it Tuesday? I thought it was Wednesday….it’s just how the weeks seem to go. Every now and again the days come to a slow crawl and…

Welcome to the petri dish

I spent the last few days in work meetings. I’m newly promoted into a higher visibility position with completely different types of expectations. It’s exciting for obvious reasons and it’s scary as hell for just as many. This meeting was my introduction- kinda of like a quinceanera of the plasma world but without the fluffy…

Future Past

I’ve read countless times, across all types of print, that being grateful is the key to happiness. I’d like to believe that I wake up everyday with a gracious heart. It’s natural to be thankful for people you have in your life, a job, a roof over your head-all the things that provide us comfort…

I’m not convinced one life is enough…

Eleanor Roosevelt said ” Today is the oldest you’ve ever been, and the youngest you’ll ever be again”.  That quote has never felt more applicable to me than this very moment.   In my own world my father emailed me last week and told me he was dying of cancer and wasn’t seeking treatment and within…

Wish in one hand….Regret in the other

I read most things subjectively. What you get out of a book or a magazine or even a billboard with a quirky catchphrase is really relative to where you are in life; where you are in your own mind when the words are flooding across it. I came across a quote today “You can’t blame…

Cor

I don’t think my life is out of the ordinary; that I’ve endured any more or less than anyone else. I’ve had some blissfully happy days and others that left me breathlessly afraid and alone. Everyone has their own internal struggles and battle scars that, if we’re lucky, we share with one- maybe two trusted…

What’s Love got to do with it?

The only reason I’m remotely aware that Valentines day is a few squares away on the calendar is the over abundance of reminders. Thank goodness Macy’s has perfume on sale and Walgreens has stuffed animals holding chocolate in their weekly ad so I can remember to love myself this one day a year. I’ve never been…